Friday Night Lights!
I love Friday night lights! I was the Varsity Football Team Captain lead my team all the way to the state championship… #1 one in passing #1 in rushing the crowd chanting my name
“David David David!” Arrhhhhhhh
Yeah boy in those moments you could call me Clark
Because I was faster than a speeding bullet, more powerful than those locomotives in helmets, and able to leap tall line-backers in a single bound! Look up in the end zone it’s super David!
Sadly like every superman, I had my kryptonite
Let me start off saying that I looooooveee women I mean the sway when they stroll, the fashions that adorn their curvatious bodies, and their sweet sensuous scents that lingers long after they have left the room. But the buck stops there. My truth is I am in love with everything that is me, strength, muscles, masculinity. So I set out to live a lie. {END Scene}
I am David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr. the epitome of machismo! I had to be number one at everything! Football, Soccer, Baseball, heck table tennis, and undoubtedly swimming across long distances! I was at top of my class, nothing less than As for me, but once I got a 89 on Art Appreciation assignment. Until I convinced my teacher that I really did appreciate that art, and I ended up with a 95. See I have always had a way with the ladies young and old: nuns, teachers, classmates, yo mama! (even though I didn’t want any of them), I portrayed myself as the perfecto catholic boy that brought mi padre’ honor and my madre pride. Out on the football field with all the Friday night lights I could see my parents at every single game home or away standing in the stands cheering para sus hijo, their pride and joy! My world was seemingly awesome!
But when the stadium lights dimmed and the crowd’s roars were muted I was left with myself and the demons that taunted me. Deadly whispers, abomination! Pathetic! Disgrace! Punk! Fairy! Faggot! Just kill yourself! Those thoughts ate at me nearly devouring my soul.
Finally at the start of my senior year in high school, after a Friday night win I was on cloud nine. I thought nothing could ruin my day! So without real deep thought I just blurted out to my parents, hey guys I’m gay… At first my dad let out a great big hearty laugh, but when he realized that I was not joking his total demure changed…Because what he had secretly thought he knew but refuse to believe was actually true.
Father: Hijo! Don’t you understand how much we sacrificed to bring you to this country! To escape the Mexican Cartel! All so you can have a better life than we ever knew. And now… Now you want to dishonor are familia and my name by being a butt chaser! I worked my culo off to build a good wholesome construction business, but you’ve made it your business to be a cockstuction worker! If you continue to choose this life I will disown you! You can consider yourself dead to me!
That same father whose name I bear, who said that I brought honor to the family, refused to even look at me, let alone speak to me, and mi Madre all she did was cry, “Porque, Jesus Cristo, porque!” My Mexican Catholic parents must have prayed a million Hail Mary’s for my deliverance. To purge me of every impurity that plagued me.
I guess it was on that one million and one Hail Mary that I stood in front of my bathroom mirror and decided to slide a cold 9mm to my temple to make my all hurt, all my pain and shame evaporate!
(In front of the mirror)
David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr.!
The star football player
David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr. !!
The straight A student!
David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr.!!
The unwanted son of David Enrique Martinez Sr.
I did everything right! Everything to make you proud. I didn’t do drugs, I wasn’t in a gang
When the Cholos wanted me to be down with them I stayed focused on my studies, and sports. My only transgression is that I fell in love with a boy, and now I can hardly love myself. I don’t want to be here anymore!
The family disgrace.
David Enrique Fuentes, Jr. The disgusting Maricon
Well Papa you don’t have to worry about your fairy son anymore! BANG! (Fall to the floor)
That was five years ago! But I stand before you today because of my unasked prayer for love… for life… for a second chance… was answered. The bullet went straight through my head with miraculously minimal damage. I won’t stand here in front of you all a claim that this has been an easy journey to self-acceptance. After my suicide attempt I spent two months at Bellevue working with exceptional therapists, and I still see a counselor once a month. My father and I are not as close as we use to be, but at least he speaks to me now, and mi Madre says that she loves me no matter what. I fully understand how hard it is trying to be everything to everyone that you lose who you truly are! With this second chance at life I am choosing to live for me. I embrace everything that I am! I am a proud gay Mexican American Christian Man. Never again will I minimize myself to maximize the many demands of others! Oh yea I am in love with a wonderful man, and together we still enjoy all of the Friday night lights!
© 2017 Katrena BlessedEmpress Reese
I love Friday night lights! I was the Varsity Football Team Captain lead my team all the way to the state championship… #1 one in passing #1 in rushing the crowd chanting my name
“David David David!” Arrhhhhhhh
Yeah boy in those moments you could call me Clark
Because I was faster than a speeding bullet, more powerful than those locomotives in helmets, and able to leap tall line-backers in a single bound! Look up in the end zone it’s super David!
Sadly like every superman, I had my kryptonite
Let me start off saying that I looooooveee women I mean the sway when they stroll, the fashions that adorn their curvatious bodies, and their sweet sensuous scents that lingers long after they have left the room. But the buck stops there. My truth is I am in love with everything that is me, strength, muscles, masculinity. So I set out to live a lie. {END Scene}
I am David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr. the epitome of machismo! I had to be number one at everything! Football, Soccer, Baseball, heck table tennis, and undoubtedly swimming across long distances! I was at top of my class, nothing less than As for me, but once I got a 89 on Art Appreciation assignment. Until I convinced my teacher that I really did appreciate that art, and I ended up with a 95. See I have always had a way with the ladies young and old: nuns, teachers, classmates, yo mama! (even though I didn’t want any of them), I portrayed myself as the perfecto catholic boy that brought mi padre’ honor and my madre pride. Out on the football field with all the Friday night lights I could see my parents at every single game home or away standing in the stands cheering para sus hijo, their pride and joy! My world was seemingly awesome!
But when the stadium lights dimmed and the crowd’s roars were muted I was left with myself and the demons that taunted me. Deadly whispers, abomination! Pathetic! Disgrace! Punk! Fairy! Faggot! Just kill yourself! Those thoughts ate at me nearly devouring my soul.
Finally at the start of my senior year in high school, after a Friday night win I was on cloud nine. I thought nothing could ruin my day! So without real deep thought I just blurted out to my parents, hey guys I’m gay… At first my dad let out a great big hearty laugh, but when he realized that I was not joking his total demure changed…Because what he had secretly thought he knew but refuse to believe was actually true.
Father: Hijo! Don’t you understand how much we sacrificed to bring you to this country! To escape the Mexican Cartel! All so you can have a better life than we ever knew. And now… Now you want to dishonor are familia and my name by being a butt chaser! I worked my culo off to build a good wholesome construction business, but you’ve made it your business to be a cockstuction worker! If you continue to choose this life I will disown you! You can consider yourself dead to me!
That same father whose name I bear, who said that I brought honor to the family, refused to even look at me, let alone speak to me, and mi Madre all she did was cry, “Porque, Jesus Cristo, porque!” My Mexican Catholic parents must have prayed a million Hail Mary’s for my deliverance. To purge me of every impurity that plagued me.
I guess it was on that one million and one Hail Mary that I stood in front of my bathroom mirror and decided to slide a cold 9mm to my temple to make my all hurt, all my pain and shame evaporate!
(In front of the mirror)
David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr.!
The star football player
David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr. !!
The straight A student!
David Enrique Fuentes – Martinez Jr.!!
The unwanted son of David Enrique Martinez Sr.
I did everything right! Everything to make you proud. I didn’t do drugs, I wasn’t in a gang
When the Cholos wanted me to be down with them I stayed focused on my studies, and sports. My only transgression is that I fell in love with a boy, and now I can hardly love myself. I don’t want to be here anymore!
The family disgrace.
David Enrique Fuentes, Jr. The disgusting Maricon
Well Papa you don’t have to worry about your fairy son anymore! BANG! (Fall to the floor)
That was five years ago! But I stand before you today because of my unasked prayer for love… for life… for a second chance… was answered. The bullet went straight through my head with miraculously minimal damage. I won’t stand here in front of you all a claim that this has been an easy journey to self-acceptance. After my suicide attempt I spent two months at Bellevue working with exceptional therapists, and I still see a counselor once a month. My father and I are not as close as we use to be, but at least he speaks to me now, and mi Madre says that she loves me no matter what. I fully understand how hard it is trying to be everything to everyone that you lose who you truly are! With this second chance at life I am choosing to live for me. I embrace everything that I am! I am a proud gay Mexican American Christian Man. Never again will I minimize myself to maximize the many demands of others! Oh yea I am in love with a wonderful man, and together we still enjoy all of the Friday night lights!
© 2017 Katrena BlessedEmpress Reese
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